Just craziness

I think Jagr is starting to come to terms with things now. I have to say it's not all bad, there are so many more things far worse than what I potentially have that could happen. Friends are being great and have said if we need some help with shopping etc then they would be more than happy to help out. I think so far shopping for me is the worst of it all, there is so much visual stimuli in the stores and with my poor vision it just feeks me out a little bit and it's not easy to find the items I want either necessarily.

Bless his soul my husband drove me to work this morning as well which actually had me in a great mood this morning, rather than stressing over trying to drive myself in. I can do it and I have done it's just a tiny bit em yes well stressful is the best word as I have to turn almost around to see into my blind spot. For the most part I just stay in the lanes where I don't have to change lanes a lot. I am fortunate that my drive doesn't involve too many changes, and I'm fine as long as I don't have a stall in front on me that I have to negotiate. It also means today I can work a full day and not worry too much about how tired I get as well.

I am probably getting ahead of myself but the more I have been reading about MS the more the symptoms that I've had point towards it so I'm not devastated by the news and it's funny people around me seem more concerned than I am. I'm happy I still have a lovely husband and right now the only issue is I see a little wonky and I have to be extra careful. I have a tendency to get a bit tired from trying to work with the computer so I take more breaks than I normally would. And hey I can touch type so I don't actually have to watch what I'm typing fortunately.

I'm still young and mobile and there are just so many people worse off than me, and I am really trying to look on the positive side of things. Chances are very likely a couple more months and I'll be seeing again just fine anyway. I think the only thing this may change is making me actually try to enjoy each day as I can and while I can. It's not one of those things that you can try to predict so why worry about it too much?