The more I learn about MS

The more I learn about MS the more I wonder about some of the things I experience, and I have to ask myself what is normal to me is not normal for other people. And honestly some of it describes symptoms of MS. Now it is normal for me to get up at least once during the night and go to the bathroom, some nights however I can go a lot more. I've always put it down to being overweight a bit, waking myself up snoring or getting un-comfy sleeping around the cats when I'm awake I have to pee. But...a lot of MS sufferers have bladder issues, I have to wonder if my trips to the bathroom are not related to this rather than to other things. It's something I might mention to my Dr. not that I'm terribly comfortable with that idea but maybe I might be able to get this managed better and perhaps ultimately get a better night sleep. At this point by the end of the week I'm just exhausted half the time from not getting a decent night. I can honestly say I can't go more than at most 3 hours in general before waking up. I seem to go to sleep about 9 and wake around 11 or 12 then go back to sleep wake again maybe 2 or 3 go back to sleep and invariable wake up sometime between 4 and 5 again most times before the alarm goes off.

I get up in the morning and I am dragging my but out to work specially during the winter. I guess only my Dr. can really give me those answers. I'm also reluctant to talk to Dr's. Call me old fashioned but I am. I don't like taking medication I don't like waiting in an office feeling like doodoo forever to see a Dr along with other sick people as invariably I just feel worse. The more I can avoid a Dr. the better, I'd rather live with stuff than see someone about it half the time. I'm the same way about the gynecologist. Admittedly when I see her next I will have a lot to tell her, I really am thinking more along the lines of doing something very permanent so I never had children. I do not want to have a child and for my symptoms to get worse then have Jagr have to take care of me and a child at the same time. The would not be fair. And who knows how expensive MS may and up being with medication anyway.

I'm glad society is more accepting about childless couples and I hope people understand our reasons for never wanting one. We don't have a lot of family support around us that can help out at the drop of the hat, and we like to have our independence. And I don't want a child of mine to grow up to maybe have to take care of me either.